My Night Requiem

stare at the spider
on the wall
when the lights go out
lie naked in a dark room
suffocating
under the weight of air
on your chest
choke with air
my hair
all over my shoulders
around my neck
will strangle me
the clock is ticking
my heart will stop
with it
not moving
for so long
only minutes have passed
millions of minutes
only a second more
on the edge of sleep
and then
fall
inside
the nightmares
will fill the gap
where pain has to be


P.S. Written a few days ago about 4 a.m. after watching Requiem for a Dream again => should not be taken seriously. I know it's fucked.